it was the first time i stayed in a house with big furry cats. having those big piercing eyes staring back at me did not put me at ease but... it was one of the most relaxing stay i have ever had.

thank you. the pizza, spaghetti, chicken drumlets have never tasted that good. and shall never be again.

i used to go blank at quotes such as "learn to love yourself". i don't know if it's possible to not love myself more. i'm every bit self absorbed, self centered, self-ish. of course i love myself.

but then i started to hate myself. i don't want to be me anymore. i don't want to change me. i don't want to accept me. i am just never... enough.

love thyself. is it possible? can i love what i have... can i love what i don't have... can i love what i can do... but also love what i can't do... can i love all these flaws and strengths in me? i don't know.

i want to be better. but i am not sure if i am cut out for it. to love thyself. is hard.

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