i love listening to his voice. the voice that soothes the ripples. and because he sings so sadly, everything else seems tolerable.
a close friend just broke the news that she's married. for life. for now. :P they have plans. they see a same future together. walking towards it. hand in hand. they truly complement each other. the good, the bad, down to the last annoying bits. hahaha. and i hope that that same love, caring, understanding and compromise will last forever. or until either one of them time-out. :)
quite a bit of changes happening around me. friends changing job, position and even life responsibilities. moving on. moving up. somehow made me reflect abit on myself. where now i choose to have a break. where do you put a definition on a break without a plan? "pure stupidity"? likely... or maybe "long vacation"? i loved that japanese series. inspired me to learn japanese for 2 semesters. i think i was secretly planning to seludup into japan and meet my kimura takuya. or yutaka takenouchi.... either one. :)
where did that passion go? a headless force of desire to want something so badly enough to do something about it. albeit so short-lived. or does passion dies? like a candle that flickers so briefly, with a pinch, leaves you in darkness. as does lust, interest and people. everything has an expiry date. if you didn't seize the moment while it's still hot, things turn cold and sour. and then you comfort yourself by saying "thank goodness i didn't waste my time on that!" another missed opportunity. another missed defining moment in your life.
if you know what you want and the situation allows it. go for it. even if it sounds like the biggest joke. many people lost the sense of purpose along the way. and even more doesn't have the liberty to just DO it. and me being here, at this point of my life. taking this selfish break to think things over. is in itself a luxury that many just could not afford.
so what if i am going to fail? fail gloriously. brush off the dust on your knees. wipe off the tears on your cheeks. try to stand up and walk again. and then say to myself "thank goodness i wasted my time on that!"
trouble... trouble... and the song sings...
1 comments:
i just randomly saw ur blog from the net. and i like to read ur stories. although things may not goes well on ur life right now, but cheers up! There's still long way to go, at least u had wasted ur time on something that u used to passion with. should no regrets. and am sure you'll find ur passion back. hope not so soon ... and this song is nice ;
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