刚才和妈又起了口角，生气得大叫，没志气眼泪就流出来。。 赶快跑上楼。 现场旁观者凌晓青看的很奇怪，跟了我进房。我就背对着她，坐在电脑面前假装做事。她默默站在我背后两分钟，就出去了。我也赶紧把门锁上。
过了一阵子晓青又就在房外敲门。我不想给她看到我这副样子，久久不开门。听她还继续一直敲门，就避开心烦的去shower。殊不知冲完凉她还在敲门，我不理她，以为过了一阵子她会知难而退。mana tau 她还是一直在敲门。
不知为什么，她的举动让我心情平静了许多。深深吸了一口气，继续做animation test 吧！
dayah hated the dark knights. it made her feel constipated. i liked the movie. i feel constipated when I'm out of the cinema.
how convenient if i could switch off certain compartments of my brain. so i don't overwhelmed myself with ... you know... nonsense.
the movie world is a wonderful realm. some people lost themselves in it, some people are appalled by it. everyone is entitled to form their own opinion. it's quite funny to discuss how much you liked it while the other couldn't stand a minute more watching it.
my mind is heavy now and when i feel like i couldn't stand it anymore, i dig even deeper, until i'm thoroughly exhausted, that's when i will sleep most soundly.
Pina. you should watch it... you could be more constipated... or you could be free...
a friend said she is stuck.
i could picture her in a box... in a hole... or with both her feet implanted in a quicksand.
the idea to escape is always lurking around the corner.
maybe by that you could solve the current problem at hand, but you also know there is a bigger problem which lies within you and that... you don't know how to make it better.
people tell you it will be better. some days are fine. some days are not. but maybe one day you will figure it out.
i hope we will get there some day.
well. enough of depressing words. :) this is a feel good movie " Intouchables". A beautiful film to share.
now is a very sensitive period in my life. i.am.desperate.
not sure if that fits into all areas of my life but. more or less. oh shut up. whatever.
i want a job. any job. in an animation studio of course. i could be a janitor if they would have me.
it's been hard. harder than i expected. I've been told people took 3-4 years to build up their portfolio. i think i am going down. and i thought i was low enough.
well. don't sweat. don't lose it. life goes on.
and yes. i wasn't really looking forward to attending one of my Uni friend's wedding last Sunday. but it turn out quite nice actually. hmmn... maybe not the part where my lecturer asked me where am i working now and i have to answer across the table that i am "looking for one". i thought i heard my soul dying inside. *mental note* request not to be seated with lecturer if you don't have a job.
besides that, everything else is nice. the food is superb. because you know, it's hard to be surprised by the generic wedding meals now but i still know when the food is good. and i got to sit down beside good old uni mates and catch-up.
i haven't seen Lee since i was up in penang 4 years ago, crashing at her place, attending TWO job interviews. TWO! my goodness! all the while i was taking my own sweet time. of course, my resume was relevant back then. *sob* what have i come to now. *pick yourself up!*
okay, that's not the point. where was I? ah yes... i was having a good time. we were in a close tight group, staying together, interned together... it was a fun time. i nearly forgot how it felt like. and after all these years. when we started talking again, it feels like only yesterday that we stayed-up late to watch korean dramas together. and the wonderful thing is, we didn't grow into some old bitter passive maid. maybe i did. abit.
time flew by quickly, and it was time to say our goodbyes. i have to say, this is the only wedding so far, that i felt sad that it ended. it was good to see you again, lee, neesha, lion, sophia (this doesn't count). i will definitely not wait for another 4 years to meet up with you guys.
ps: lee, you really have to change your tilam this time around.